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Getting Back On Track

Posted on November 04, 2009 by Amee in The Normal Stuff | No Comments

I have probably attempted to blame quite a number of people for my bitterness during the past few weeks which i thought had hindered my performance on different class activities I had to partake in order to boost my grade. I thought I had it all figured out til one time the root of all the problems which I would rather re-name; the root of all my evil stood probably yards away from me. I am an extremely nice person if you decide to reciprocate. Then we don’t have a problem. I tend to shy away from insecure girls when I am a bit insecure myself. I just feel I have the mindset and maturity most times to deal with my insecurities as compared to other girls who I have totally disagreed with! That is besides the point here, My point is a lot of people find it “bitchy” of me when I don’t mingle with the crowd. Its not that I don’t want to, its just that I feel I have better things to do than waste time on personal chats with hypocrites, girls who put up facades. I am so over highschool/ secondary school and I just feel that this world has so many opportunities to chase!

So maybe I don’t smile for the girl across the hall… Has it ever dawned upon you that maybe secretly she does not like me and both her and I know it. Why put up a front. As I see it, the only way I could set aside my differences to laugh and have an insignificant conversation with someone I am not pleased with is if its in my job, or my best interest to… Other than that, I see no point in doing so.

I may come off mean but thats just how the vicious cycle rolls. I have been caught up into giggles and smiles and waves more often than None and I am fed up of integrating with secretly vicious girls. I could fish them out of a pool if I have to right now!

I was in Psychology Memory class, paying attention to facebook as USUAL and I heard my prof add in some advice. I caught onto the last sentence because most likely those preceding it was not as useful as the summarized version! He made mention about keeping happiness because being upset or bitter does affect ones performance. I attempted this with my last exam and I did better than I had expected in it. So from today, I am promising myself to get unattached to foolishness and lies and make everything rainbows and butterflies with a pot of gold significant

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